11.11.12 😌 >
Last Night 😌 >
Dawg, All You Can Do Is Cruise. Mellow Out, And Cruise As Quick As Possible.
People who want me scare me
there’s always been too much grabbing at my flesh to trust any hands
they all look so much alike
People who want to make me happy anger me
like my happiness doesn’t lie in my bones
assuming i couldn’t find it if i wanted to
not really understanding that sometimes
i just don’t want to
People who are willing to so selflessly devote themselves to unraveling the me of me
are the ones i push away
they make me feel unstable
like once i’m healthy they’ll suck me dry for their own needs
Lately it’s been a lot more mellow than anything else.
There is a lot I am learning that I can easily tell someone else, but can’t grasp with out catching wind of real life situations myself. Take in what the world gives, whether it self experience or distantly attained knowledge. Think for yourself… Live for yourself… And DON’T EVER let anyone else mold you who isn’t worthy of touching greatness.
Do it all playas… Because I sure will.
… My self control is immaculate in comparison to where it was years ago. My urge to do what I want still kicks in from time to time, but my self control is irreproachable at this point.
I have a flirting issue. More so flirting with the wrong ppl. I don’t know. Being around people you once talked to is funny. You see the potential you once saw now in full affect, but acting on physical appeal would fuck up the overall mental vibe you are going for. Others say if ppl have become your past, it is for a reason… but what if the reason was you got bored. With time boredom with one person turns back into mystery. I’m babbling. It’s 4:11 AM and seven eleven is giving away free slurpees today. Morning at seven eleven sounds great. *salutes*